Confident

I once dated a boy who told me that I was "too into myself". According to him, I posted way too many selfies, and spent too much time in the mirror putting on makeup and messing with my hair.

The problem is what he wasn't seeing. Confidence. I was in great shape, had good hair, and was just getting into the whole beauty scene. I loved my life. The issue that I didn't see is that I dated a boy who was insecure and tried to bring me down with him. By no means did I wear my makeup and hair a certain way to please him, but his words were scarring in the end. I tried to figure out what he wanted from me. I slowed my roll on social media and stopped wearing so much makeup. I even asked him how he liked my hair so that he wouldn't have to complain about it ever again (Ironically, he liked it straight).
I started becoming more concerned with not being egocentric than I was "into myself". It didn't make sense.

Time passed and we obviously broke up.
I'm a lot more confident now. I started dressing the way I wanted and slapping on all the makeup. Admittedly, maybe even too much. My eyeliner sometimes wings out to my eyebrows and I honestly don't care, because thats how I like it. I even stopped straightening my hair for about a month, because thats how I liked it most. I admire the girls on instagram who spend hours making tutorials and vlogging their life. Honestly, I'm so intrigued.

Looking back, I wish I could go back and dump this kid for good the moment he said this to me. Words can be so damaging, especially in relationship. Like someone for who they are, not what they wear, dress, or even weigh. I'm so lucky to be in a relationship with someone who can see me 100% myself and think I am just as (if not more) beautiful than when I'm all done up.
Find someone who allows you to be you. Find someone sharp enough to sharpen you. Someone who brings you up instead of down (& Vis-versa).
And even if you're not dating, don't hate people because they're confident. Let the "crazy girl" vlog her car rides home. Let the girl who lost a ton of weight post a bunch of pictures of her progress.
LET PEOPLE LIVE.

I was inspired to write this from my sisters up and coming blog. In her blog she writes about dating experiences, both good and bad, and the ways in which dating can really effect someone. Think about what you're doing when holding the heart of another. 

Check it out at Sadgirlblog.com

I was also inspired to write this by my lovely boyfriend Robert Miller. Thank you for being my #1 fan. I'm so happy you don't rush me in the morning, that you love my curly hair, and when I wear my funky sunglasses.

Xoxo,
Megs

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